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I was reading a post on one of the blogs I follow (I’ll post the link below) and something she stated in her entry was a form of confirmation for me. There is something about the new year that, regardless of whether you believe in making resolutions, motivates us to want to start fresh. We want to do things better in the upcoming year than we had in the previous year.

I have already shared my recent change and transition to making a stronger commitment to my writing. Within that, I touched on establishing a schedule and committing to writing everyday, per my friend, Stephen (as in Stephen King whom I’ve deemed my new personal friend though I don’t really know the man). While reading through Catherine Caffeinated’s post today, she quotes the writing advice of Lawrence Block which is a follows:

          “…if you write first thing, you can enjoy the rest of your day guilt-free.”

This statement couldn’t be more true. Since I have made the commitment to write everyday, I must admit, there is an overwhelming feeling of guilt and shame when I don’t get it done first thing in the morning. It tears at me all day. Last night is a perfect example.

I did not write yesterday morning because I had soooo many things to get done in my personal life. Everything I did, every errand I ran, every meeting I attended resulted in a Candace who was present in body, but certainly not in spirit. I was anxious throughout the day, and despite being able to check off everything on my list as being completed, I still felt completely unaccomplished because the one thing at the very top of the list still remained unmarked – writing.

By 9:00 last night, I finally forced myself to sit and write. You know what? I couldn’t focus, my thoughts weren’t clear, my fingers stammered on the keys, it was a frustrating nightmare. I probably worked for 30 minutes at best and accomplished one complete, but dreadful paragraph. But, at least I could say I wrote today was the lie I told myself so I’d be able to sleep soundly.

Needless to say, here I am, completing my blog entry with a guarantee that the moment I click “publish” I’ll be banging away on the keys, working on my book. Writing is my work. Now that I have fully committed to this madness, it eats away at me when my production is less than stellar because of my own apathetic behaviors.

Whether you’re an early riser or a night owl, whenever you’re at your best, when your mind is most fresh, that is the time you should be committing to writing. Some days are much harder than others, but you have to push through it. It’s better to write a few pages of garbage, than not to write at all. You can always go back in your revision stage and make it the fresh, coherent masterpiece you want it to be. Just commit to doing it.

Do it. Get through it. And write on!

Link: http://catherineryanhoward.com/